Heading To The Doctors

I have been having severe hand pain the last 3 months. At first i put it off as i was busy, then i was noticing it more and more and it was lasting longer through out the day. The end of the day is the worst... I then began to think my scleroderma has returned. Yep i was diagnosed with this when i was around 9 and i don't remember everything that went along with this, or the pills i had to take but i remember i hated it. I had to go to the dr like monthly and get lots and lots of blood drawn each time, i also had to do physical therapy on my hands with a person that came to my house. I also remember having to wear these plastic molds that went up to my elbows at night time.  Well i was very blessed that it went away when i was around the age of14 or 15 i think. Now being a adult and researching what this disease really is i have to say it scares me. Of course the worst case scenarios are always first on the google searches but it scares me. I learned that it is a auto immune disease, i am going to guess that i passed this auto immune disease on to Kate who has Celiac Disease.

Well I went to my primary doctor about a month after i really started to notice my hand pain. I wanted her to have a look at my hands and do some blood work, after that appointment she referred me to a rheumatologist to have them look at me. That was not what i wanted to hear but i figured she would say it.  Well let me tell you getting in with these doctors take months. I couldn't go to my last specialist because he was a pediatric dr only. So i had to find a new one. He recommend a doctor but he had a 6 month wait. Being inpatient as i am i chose another one and got in 3 month earlier. I will be seeing her on the 6th next month and I'm anxious and excited to see what she thinks it is. I am so dreading that they are going to want me to take a butt load of prescriptions each day. That is not me, i much rather take a natural approach, but i don't want it to get worse or cause any more daily pain.

I was talking with the Mr. and i was saying that i hate auto immune diseases because its a silent pain that nobody sees but that person feels.  I feel like people that don't have it can't really relate to what your experiencing. That whole seeing is believing line.....

Please pray that my doctor is amazing and the right doctor for me, and that they are able to pin point just what is going on, and that they are able to help with the pain.